hey..i jus felt like i was at a lost of wad to do...so.yeah.decided to blog..hmm.i jus realised sth very funny.those who im really close to( in which i will turn to u n actually tell u my problems..) say i have a mature way of thinking..those who im like ok with, like my best buddies, or good frens..say i look mature but am imature. n dont worry..cuz tt isnt e worse..some guys think they're all that and so they jus judge me on my looks.and think im like an airhead or sth. so..when they started to like talk to me n ask me my views on specific topics..they tend to be a little stunned. so..yeah.its kinda weird..eeeek.ok...freaky much, im getting those weird thoughtful feelings back! gah..sumtimes.i really dun like tt feeling..gah! makes me think too much. yeah.sumtimes.i wish tt i cld jus go back to how i used to be in e past, forever happy, but like so superficial..always smiley n happy on e outside..n like even though im hurting..i dont feel it. cuz i jus cast it aside..but now, when i meet more frens, older n e same age as me..i change.i get to realise those feelings in me. n i dun pretend anymore. i jus let those feelings go..hmm.
n now tt i think even deeper abt tt..i jus realised..tt. all my frens in e past.. they were all like tt too...n they're all bimbos. happy-go-lucky bimbos. i wish i were like them sumtimes,i really do.


let me fly.
out into the sky.