hey dears(: i've been thinking about it.i had always wanted to pursue a music career..yeah.
but.i guess, it has both bad and good sides to it. if i composed sth i think is nice, and i want to share it with all the people out there, or if someone composed something for me to sing, and its really good, those tou hao fans! wont gettit. they'll just go " jiayou!" blabla thingy thing thing, without understanding it, noe wad im saying? yeah.so actually most singers go for an image, or package, not just to enjoy music and share it with the world. and i guess, that's not what i really want.
plus, ur privacy gets sucked away. serious. i've just been to wuzun/wuchun's blog and stuff. mans, his blog is FLOODED. and he complains tt people actually FOLLOW HIM HOME to see where he lives. okay, i CANNOT stand that. i totally need privacy when i want it. yeah.but, i think its great tt fans support e singers or bands they feel are good in such an encouraging way. its really great to go up on stage with audiences who simply adore u. haha. i have a mini fan club, and im sure everyone does, just tt u dont notice it :p mine consists of all my beloved frens, family and of cuz, my little cousins.(: i will nv forget them.
haha.nowi feel so loved.(: and i love them all alot too, duh.
oh yeah.i just thought of this really funny convo when i was 11.
at a departmental store to buy my performance make up.

saleslady: hi! do u want to see our latest products?
me: okay(:
she lays them on the glass surface.
saleslady: there u go, a whole new lipstick collection by versace, a whole new eyeshadow rainbow collection from chanel, and all the diff shades of foundation from red earth! please, pick(:
me: hmm.i need lipstick for a performance, but i dont noe which colour to get!
saleslady: ur complexion..i suggest a light pink wld be best-beams-
me: okay. i'll take this one then.
she puts it in a bag.
me: issit the versace one?(worried tt the perky saleslady might mix it up)
saleslady: yes! versace has the BEST quality ya noe, the best fishscales..
me: FISHSCALES???? WHAT FISHSCALES??
saleslady: oh dont u noe? lipsticks are made from fishscales. and i assure u, versace has the FINEST fishscale quality, the FRESHEST too!(:
me: ohmy.ohmygosh..ohmygosh! eeeeeeeeewwww...sorry..ermm.maybe i'll buy it some other day.. oh look at the time! gotta run! byeee~
saleslady: but! but!!miss!!! ur lipstick?! miss!!!!



haha.then i ran outta the shop. so embarrassing. but i still think its kinda disgusting. haha.
yes, u must be wondering..me? a girly girl? disgusted with lipsticks? sounds wrong yeah? haha.but actually u might be quuite surprised. im not all that girly. haha. i dont like putting on make up, only on others. and i freak out with those thingys u do to ur eye lashes.
esp the eye lash curler!!-shudder- and..the mascara-shudder- haha.at the musical? e person was like doing eyelash curler on me saying" lydia, stop moving backwards..please? i might just poke ur eye accidentally.." i freaked out, and stood up. and totally refused to let joanna or anyone touch my lashes. haha. during storm in a fishbowl. haha.
oh yeah. CAST OUTING!!YAY!! haha.finally! i cant wait to see rachel again.(: ~the 60 yr old ya'all saw during the musical. haha.kays, i gtg.buhbye dears!
take care of urselves yeah?
drink lotsa water! and dont be like me, so darn fat. putting on so much weight. buhbye((: