i am NOT going to let jealousy take over me.


LYDIA! you're a horrible person!
horrible horrible horrible!




AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH but i cant help it!

why do i have to be so competitve?!

>.<
i suck.


first i had to be jealous over someone else's talent. it's not that im abnormal, as some of ya'll called me when i said im very good friends with her/she's really nice etc. i mean! do you even understand how LONG and HARD it took me to be able to get over it?
it was the first time i ever felt such strong emotions.
and i still feel guilty that i even had such feelings. she's a really sweet girl, and i really love her(=

THEN. another time, when i was jealous again over some other girl. and i have to admit, im NOT over it yet okay. charis, u prly know who im talking about. >.<
chelle, i'll tell you in sch tmr or sth kays?(=


AND AFTER THAT! i still cldnt learn my lesson.
SHEESH. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME.
i wish i could TOTALLY control my feelings.


ohwells. a dream, is a wish your heart makes, when you're fast asleep.

haha i love that song(=
anyways, i FINISHED my antibiotics course today!(=
so i guess im cured.(=

im not in a very good mood recently. hm.
so im just gonna go sleep or sth.
too bad i finished my last bottle end last year :/
okays, gotta go sleep alr.
buhbye amigos!