it's like my whole world revolves around you or something. i can't stand it myself.




it's funny, isn't it?
to escape to a place where you wanted to forget your problems, but end up coming back from that same place with even MORE problems than before.

no one takes me seriously anymore.
or more like, i dont know how to express myself, or my true feelings and emotions.
i forgot how to.

is it that i haven't expressed myself clearly enough to you that i'm having issues with a really great friend of mine? or that you just don't know me well enough to realise how serious this is?
or wait, could it be worse? you just totally don't care at all, whether or not i have serious issues?
gosh. i wish someone could just take me seriously for once.
even my brother doesn't! that explains alot, doesn't it?





whatever. i shall just bury myself with books and coop myself at home while drowning my sorrows with caffeiene, since i cant seem to find any booze around the house.

just a gentle reminder, i'm not a plastic girl living in my own bubble.
i ACTUALLY have feelings, that i wish you could understand.
but nooo, everyone just calls me an airhead.

i know i blew up real bad 2 years ago with the bimbo issue, and that's when i learnt that, my belief in how the people i thought would never judge me, was totally wrong.
if they didnt judge me, then why on earth, would they make it seem like my 'slowness', or so they call it, is an illness that will KILL me or something?

not everything about me is glowing radiance and happiness.
it's just that i don't bother to show everyone else around me my wrath and moodiness.
so it you don't understand, then just go away.