hey dearies, chingus(=

it's christmas AGAIN! so merry christmas~
it seems as if every christmas i'll blog.
but anyways, this yr's christmas is even lonelier than last yr's. )=

okays, for this yr, i shall post a love story~
im the author, so if it sucks or wdv, feel free to comment(=


So NOT once upon a time, maybe just a yr ago, there was a beautiful girl, she was talented in every thing she does, except maybe for her studies..
she was an actress cum singer, in other words, a superstar.
well, sort of.
but she wasnt THAT famous yet.
she had always thought of herself as superfical, as she goes for pretty clothes, goodlooking men, and stuff like that.
but actually, she was more innocent than she thought.
and everyone else around her knew that, except for her.
one day, she decided to learn korean.
her korean teacher was a guy and he was not exactly very goodlooking.
but, he was very buff.
the girl dint really have much interest in her korean teacher, she was more..
interested in the language.
but duh, as he is her teacher, she wld have his phone no.
and the two of them became pretty close.
slowly, this girl started to fall for the guy.
she dint care about how he looked.. and just hopelessly fell in love.
the guy apparently, fell in love with her too.
but she dint know that.. so one day, the guy confessed his feelings to her.
she was stunned. and dint know wad to say.
but she accepted his heart.
the following days that she spent with him was sweet yet tragically short.
after a few days, the girl felt that she cldnt really feel whether he really loved her or not.
it was partly because the guy, knowing she was a star, dint want anyone else to find out.
he dint even state clearly if they were attached or not.
the girl questioned herself endlessly..
but never got to know the answer.
one time, the guy got jealous.
the girl, because she was an actress, had to act with a guy as his lover.
and they were also very good friends.
so the guy got jealous and started saying stuff like how she wld have better prospects with the other guy than with him, as if trying to push her away from him.
at first, the girl felt a teensy happy cuz if a guy got jealous, that means he likes you doesnt it?
but after awhile, he just kept saying these things over and over again..
till one day,
he suddenly called her and told her he cldnt take it any longer.
the girl was very puzzled.
she dint even do anything~
he told her that she shldnt like him anymore, as if he cld make up her mind FOR her.
the girl was really angry, upset and bewildered all at the same time.
in fact, her emotions were so muddled up together, that
she just burst into tears and took out her phone battery.(cliched, i know)
and this girl never cried unless it was something big.
she wldnt talk to him and he just kept calling.
the girl totally dint expect this of the guy.
she dint even understand why he was behaving the way he did.
she was puzzled, confused and too tired to even do anything.
a week later, the press and papparazzi got to know of this news, that this girl
was somehow involved with this guy.
so they tracked her down, and she was in the tabloids every single day~
her manager cldnt take it anymore, and got her a new hp, changed her address, got her 10 bodyguards and made sure she had no whatsoever contact with that guy.

this happened for a few months, till the press died down..
finally, one day, while she was cleaning up her room, she found a present that the guy had given her long time ago.
she suddenly thought of him and memories started flooding back into her head.
all this months, she had been keeping herself busy with dance practices, vocal classes..
acting enrichment programmes..
just so that she cld forget him.
but now the memories came back and she had the sudden urge to call him.
so she did.
and when he picked up the phone.
he was very surprised to hear her voice.
but he acted as if nothing happened at all.
she was very hurt, and dint noe wad to do.
they kept in touch for a few days..
and the girl decided she wanted to forget him totally.
so she suddenly cut down on their conversations by alot and
he dint even bother to call or email her.
the girl then realised that she had always been the one initiating these things first, thats why he nv bothered to call first.
so she just totally let go.
but it was a hard process.
she wld pick up her phone, dial his number.
and put it down again.
this cycle happened at least 10 times a day.
finally, after a few more months, she managed to not try to call him.
but due to some programme her company organised, she had to see him very often.
and that made her hurt ache again and again..



okays. i shall stop.
hahaha. this story is getting too emo man~
haha. but wdv, im gonna go continue watching my new korean show(=
aniyo chingus, esp my cool north korean eskimo fren((((=