im missing so many ppl now )=

my bro especially!
these few days he just went into army and it's been raining alot,
i hope it aint too tough on him.
maddie too!
it's just so weird without talking to her for about a week or so.
okay, so she called me that day..
but it was really short )=

and i'll definitely miss jas )=
she's leaving this 25th!
not even able to celebrate my bday with me)=

sigh.
my bday's so close, and im not even celebrating.
i dunno wad to do for my bday.
this shall be called
"bday blues"

i hope jaejoong spends his bday better than mine,
his is just 3 days before mine(=

i might just celebrate my bday on HIS bday(=
hahaha. that made me happier(((=
hahhahahhhaha!
OKAY THAT MADE ME HIGH, AGAIN!
hahaha
these 2 weeks of school has been so high.
we keep laughing about anything and everything.
and since i sit next to lulu, behind sans and aly, in front of kat and sarah..
i CANT stop laughing.
hahhaa

i rmb that time during math class, mr lee was going thru some weird math problem..
and sans suddenly turned to aly and said
" hey hey look at me!-whispers-"
-she sticks her hand on her lower jaw and shakes it-
" hurhurhehehehehurhurhur~worhurworhur~"
-that is wad she called laughter vibrato-

and cuz she was so spas, i just burst into laughter, lulu oso!
and cuz no one else saw,
everyone in class stared at us.
and soon they started laughing!
i dunno why!
i think it's cuz LAUGHTER IS CONTAGIOUS! esp in our class =p
wahahhahhaa! EHB! wooo((=
okay, inside joke =D
anyways, my laughter is getting more open and crazier.
i think it's cuz of sans influence.
her laughter is seriously crazy.
hahaa

anyways,
jaejoong oppa, i hope ya have a wonderful birthday(=
even though i personally dun find anything to celebrate about for mine,
i can celebrate yours with ya!

sarang hae, jaejoongie<3

dont worry, hannah and lulu,
KIBUM WONT GET JEALOUS!
hahhahahaa




15 more days!

hint hint~

i've had my eye on that bag in new urban male for a looong time(=
that pink, a little translucent one(((=
and of cuz haviannas((=
=D

but my biggest wish is of cuz to..
GO KOREA AND FULFILL MY DREAM(=
only some of my fans will noe wad i mean =p

u noe,
these few days, there are certain times when i feel so lonely.
even on a crowded bus/train i still feel so lonely.
so lonely it freaks me out.
it's like.
im so lonely, trying to find someone, anyone, to talk to.
and then i realise, the person i've been wanting to talk to the most is gone.
and even when the person's back, i wont be able to talk to the person.
cuz..the heart belongs to someone else already.

sheesh. those lessons on cherishing ppl before they go havent really gotten to me, have they?
and now, i really understand the meaning of
" u only realise how precious a person is to you when they're gone"

i wish u were here.
i wish..
i wish alot of things.
but that wish, was even higher than my dream.
too bad the heart's no longer there.
so i'll just have to strive for my dream(=


~courage to smile. to take on the world. here i go~