HAPPY BIRTHDAY MADDIE!

yay! ur finally 15! haha
just to let you know, i really LOVED the times we spent together!(=
and will ALWAYS rmb them(=
even when i grow up, or when i grow old and if we nv contact each other again(which i highly doubt will happen!)

i shall have this whole post in green! haha
i miss maddie ALOT ALOT.
my bro as well, he loves green too.
haha

okays. wad has happened today that caused everyone to feel "ew-ish" about in sch?
we played against THAT class, and guess wad.
lulu got injured.
so did i -.-
my wrist still hurts like mad.
but thankfully, no serious injuries.
i just hope i can play for my MEP performance and stuff
it REALLY hurts
sometimes i wonder if SOME people have consciences or not.
but whattever, i dun wanna waste my energy on such trivial and unworthy issues.


okays, now, i dun that guilty anymore.
but..
ahhh

i really dunno wad to think of anymore.
thats why i really wanna leave this place, maybe to another country?
THATS also a reason why i wanna go for overseas studying..
and never to come back.
i cant believe my friends can drive me to such a state.
it's not like i blame them or anything.
i just wished i dint have to be so confused. >.<


I NEED TO CONTINUE MY DIET! so annoying.
i keep forgetting
but today i started again cuz i just had no appetite after thinking about what has happened this year and these problems are giving me sleepless nights.
i WISH i cld go back in time, and stop everything before it happened.
i wish i hadnt met you,
then i wun know you now.
and i wont be stuck in this mudfest.

LYDIASERVICE 24/7 is not really in much use, since alot of my close friends have left.
but it's alright. i dun think it can function properly anyway. hahaha
im in such a terrible state nowadays, i dun think i have the right to help others
ohwells. SORRY(=

im really sorry for putting you through this >.<
SORRY times 3!
(saying it 3 times means i mean it!)

and i really dunno when it'll end. cuz i dunno wad to do anymore.
im so mean.
GAH.
mean lydia.

okays, i shall go consult someone about this problem.
i WISH i dint have a conscience!

anyways, I LOVE MY FRIENDS<33
GO 3M(=
and im missing so many of you now! ><

okays. i shall stop blabbering nonsense. haha

maddie! MAY ALL YOUR DREAMS COME TRUE!
and may we both be successful in fulfilling our dreams, and hopefully we'll stay BESTIES FOR LIFE(=

LOVES!