gahhh. i feel restless. these few nights have been only getting about 3-4 hours of sleep.
it sucks.
really does. especially when im a person who always needs my 8hours.
it seriously effects my wellbeing! >.<
and.. i think my diet's working =D
hahahaha so happy.
but im worried tt i cant sleep again. argh
how??? if i suffer fm another day of lack of sleep, i think i'll just be a zombie.
i NEED all my energy~
bleah.

i forgot what i wanted to blog about. hahaha
hmm.. lemme think.
oh yeah. we watched x files, the season today. it sucks, as usual.
i freaked out alot.
and im still pretty tweaked.
yucks.
more regeneration stuff.

i feel utterly disgusted.

you know sometimes, you feel like you're at the end of the tunnel, when you're seeing just a teensy little wee bit of light, maybe?
when u get a sudden revalation, what?! it's not the end??
the light you saw, was just a fragment of your imagination?!
wont you feel like giving up?

i had just such a small bit of hope left in me, till i realised, who am i to compete with her?
and should i even compete?
she only has those vocals to lean on, but i have other stuff, right?
and besides, her vocals are much better than mine.
why should i be selfish and steal her limelight?
thats if i even can do so.
sometimes i just wished i had more confidence, or that maybe i shldnt even have my vocals
cuz it's not good enough, nor issit very horrible
maybe if it was horrible, it would be more easy give up this dream of mine?
im struggling to win, yet im dubious of myself.

i shared my views with my bro.
and all he could say was:
"you're starting to remind me of leona lewis.."
of which i replied:
'WHAT?! leona lewis is such a great singer, that you cant even compare me to her"

he said"im not talking about that! nevermind."

and i really couldnt figure out what he meant.
till i saw a video done on leona lewis.
apparently, she has some issues with her self esteem.
she never thought of her vocals as wonderful or anything.

but obviously, she's definitely damn good.
but it's a different case for me.
im not good at all

gosh, i sound so.
yucks.
wonder where my ego went?
probably down the drain, after what it saw and heard.

but whatever the case is, whether i win or lose, i just wanna thank God for this oppurtunity He has given me, to be able to perform on stage.
just being on stage gives me so much encouragement. (=
love it!(=
so dearies, please come down to support 16 seconds and me for the ALOUD! finals
tickets are sold now, $10 each
29th august, 7pm (i think)

guest performers like nathan hartono will be there! (performing, that is)
so fans, do come down too. haha

anyways, gonna do some exercising(=
tahs darlings!