im like blogging everyday. haha must be the stress.
strings is giving me stress, homework's giving me stress, my piano teacher's stressing me, those stupid Os are stressing me..
etc.

today had teacher student conference with mrs lau.
at first i was super stressed over quite alot of things, but after talking to her, i felt alot better(=
although i had strings after that, and all the stress came back, i just wanna thank mrs lau(=


anyways, i feel like im gonna explode any moment. im not angry or frustrated.
i just wanna talk to someone(a specific someone), but i cant.

so i feel like all the words are exploding out of my head. hahaha

okays, i think maybe the stress is going to my head.
im praying this stress will wear off with time(=

hmm. i was supposed to blog about something. but i kinda forgot.
>.<

ohhh!

lulu! this is all your fault!
i think kim jong hyun from SHINee sings well!
but the thing about shinee is like..
most of their members rap well, but only few of them can sing.

and.. kim hyun joong is cute =D
from ss501.



oh! tt reminds me, i need to scold laomay!
she went for japan sabbaticals, and met cute japanese guys! anddddd....
SHE WAS SUPPOSED TO TAKE PHOTOS AND GIVE ME!!!!
how could she forget??
i only rmbed after i saw some of their photos for their japan rocs project!
>.<
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
it's not fair!
even though we went to prague, and most of the male population look good there, BUT BUT BUT.. JAPANESE GUYS?!


sigh. there goes my jap boyfriend dream.. hahahhaha
joking!

i've been having weird dreams recently.
dont understand them.
like. last week, i dreamt tt i died TWICE!
one, cuz i had fits, another time cuz i fell off the stairs.

hmm. thinking about death.. if i die tmr, i think i'd regret alot of things.
i still have lots of things to tell people. even though it's not the right time to do so now.
why am i even talking about this topic?!
so solemn.

okays! to brighten things up!
im super proud of my juniors((=
they're a band called ice waters, and they're good(=
they let me listen to their songs tt they recorded!(=
hahahaha so proud of them(=



okay, i need to brainwash myself. let me.


THE OS IS NOT A BIG DEAL.
IT IS NOT A BIG DEAL.
NOT A BIG DEAL.
NOT NOT NOT A BIG DEAL!

NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT.
NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT
NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT!

YOU CAN DO IT LYDIA!
YOU CAN DO IT LYDIA!
YOU CAN DO IT LYDIA!


WHO CARES IF U CAN ADAPT IN JC?
NOPES! NOT A PROBLEM!
YOU'LL BE FINE!
YEAH!

I DONT CARE IF IM NOT SUITED TO THE JC/POLY/WHATEVER!
I JUST NEED TO DO WELL
DO WELL!
DO WELL!


okayyy... going in the wrong direction again.



CALM DOWN!
CALM DOWN!
CALM DOWN!

IT'S OKAY IF I DONT DO AS WELL AS EXPECTED, I DONT DIE!
wait. maybe i would. mentally.



this isnt working
im just gonna go hum some tunes to sleep.
tt'll work


BUHBYE AMIGOS!
nothing to worry about!(=