im a little sick of typing in pink. yeah, i cant believe it either.
hahaha

i just wanted baby pink, but ya'll wont be able to read it easily.
haha
anyways! today was a very fun outing with chelle! we talked alot(=
but unfortunately, we dint take much pictures.
okay. let me start from the beginning of today.
i woke up with a start after a trail of NIGHTMARES that scared me quite badly.
then i had a splitting headache from thinking too much on the nightmares.
so i tried drinking lots of water, but felt like puking instead.
after that, when i went to church, i was hoping SOOOO HARD that i wldnt have to talk to him today, or sit next to him. but sadly, my prayers werent answered. )=
but neverminds. i was trying my best today to be accomodative. like really okay.
so i just answered whatever he asked as nicely as possible. but i was getting a little heated up inside. so i TRIED getting away from him, but NOOOO i cldnt. why? cuz he just kept tagging along.
gah. i shld've just stayed at the balcony the whole time till charis came.

ohwells. im trying, i really am. and i feel really bad that i still cant forgive and forget. )=
it feels really weird, you know, it's like. once i think of him i immediately cringe.
then i'll feel like running away.
i know running away from the problem never gets me anywhere, but seriously, im just too tired to face it again and again. cant someone just solve it for me? haha im lazy.
anyways, so after SS, i went down to find wei en =D
i was feeling really bad, cuz i was super late. but i needed to go to the toilet very urgently, and when i came back, i saw him crying :/
at first i thought it was because of me so i was like :O oh no! what have i done now?
then reuben and weitheng came along and i realised what happened.
poor wei en :/
he tells me alot of things that he thinks of himself that i really think he shouldnt think of.
so i tried cheering him up by making a fool out of myself, but too bad i dint have sweets haha
i hope it worked anyway. haha

maybe i should be a clown when i grow up! haha that's a really nice job huh.
bringing joy to kids(=
but alot of kids are scared of clowns. i mean, i've had my fair share of clown scaring, but i pretty much think they're alright. and who says clowns must have a horrible sense of fashion?
i can be a fashionable clown that makes children laugh (=
hahaha


okay! my new ambition is to be a clown!
first things i have to do:
1. learn how to blow a balloon. yeah i seriously cant :/

haha forget it. i'll do this some other day.
hahaha
i suddenly dont feel like blogging anymore.
ohwells!

buhbye dearies(=