hmm. it's been a bad week so far. it started off with a GREAT KICK! when a CERTAIN someone insulted me, in front of a whole lot of other people, saying that i was a great actress, tt im fake and superficial. thanks. thanks ALOT (= i mean, i dont mind you thinking that of me, neither do i deny the fact that i am indeed superficial and fake, BUT YOU tell me someone in this WORLD whom you know that doesnt have a facade. i asked you this question the last time you told me how fake i was, and apparently, your mouth just cldnt seem to open. (= and PLEASE. learn to keep your mouth shut at appropriate times. if you wanna think that way of me, FINE. but dont tell the whole world in FRONT OF ME and then make everyone LAUGH AT ME.
you should get a taste of your own medicine. whatever. i've given you soo many chances before, you apologized SOO MANY times before, and i forgave you. but you know what, now i dont give a damn on what you think, oh wait. i never did(=
i just dont give a damn about how i think of you. (= so dont bother trying to come up to me, pulling me aside to aplogise, cuz dearie, i just dont care (=


okay, i know i sound super mean. and YES i am mean. but whatever. i was just pissed off.
and i know i'll prly feel REALLLYYY guilty after this post, but again, whatever.

then after that, i received most of my test results back, and im glad i only failed emath this time. haha
but... i still did pretty badly overall, except for LIT/SS!! =DDD
yayness!! =D

and.. im super irritated by the fact that i made so many careless mistakes in ALL MY TESTS.
especially AMATH! gosh! i could've gotten an A1 OKAY!
plus, today my piano lesson dint go well. i should've played better.
on the way home today, i was just thinking.. is being nice really important?
even if i have 0 talent, im fat and ugly?
and just when i thought that maybe i should totally ignore my conscience and just go fullsteam ahead on being sucessful, a baby in a pram pushed by his father passed by. i looked into his pram and smiled, and he smiled back, and couldnt take his eyes off me! =D till his dad had to push the trolley away la. haha
and after that, i realised, what is success, without an inner beauty?
gosh, even my dog knows that. how dumb can i get? hahaha


okays, i shall stop going around like this.


AND type in PINK! =D
i feel alot better(=
on sunday night, i dont know why, but i felt really insecure.
it was like, as if i dint know who to trust anymore.
den when i was doing my quiet time, i had a sudden realisation that i havent been putting God first in my life. i was so caught up in everything i was doing, strings, studies,friends, service,piano etc. that i forgot to put Him first.
so i decided, that mortal friends might not be always 100% perfect, and i'll definitely get hurt by them at LEAST once, THEREFORE, God shall always be FIRST in my life(=
and after that, i felt much better, cuz i know Jesus will never betray me(=


today i did eye dissection.
okay, at first i was really freaking out, and alex volunteered to help me. hahaha
but in the end, i wanted to do it, so i took my own eye, and dissected it! =D
so proud of myself!(=
plus! my lens was SO COOL OKAY! even though when i tried looking at alex through it, i couldnt, cuz it was too cloudy inside. but that's not the point, the point was that, it looks like..
a DEW! hahaha so cool!

ohwells. im kinda bored. and i wanna go watch my drama(=
buhbye amigos!(=