i am in a very very very horrible mood. it's not that im cranky or anything, im just,
pissed off, frustrated, and super super super upset.
like, WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU? i wish you'd get outta my life.
gahhhh.

who are you, to judge me? to judge my every being? to judge who i am? to judge MY personality? havent you taught us enough on how not to judge others?
do you even know how much hurt you've caused?

okays, like whatever, your opinions, i dont really care.
but WHY did you blow things out of proportion?
cant you just keep your trap closed?

im not only pissed, but i feel VERY VERY VERY misunderstood. why cant you understand?
no one ever understands.

today i was feeling as terrible as ytd, but i feel better now, just that my spirits are still dampened.

whatever the case is, i can now understand why i feel that my odd years of life are weird and so screwed.

and, i've learnt something from this experience,
dont try crying yourself to sleep over these trivial matters, because you'll get such complicated dreams at night, and when you wake up, you feel like you're hung over, waiting to throw up.


i dint cry cuz i was upset with YOU. i cried cuz i realised it's gonna take a long time for me to forgive and forget. grrr

im so freaking tired from running this race
sometimes i really wonder what i live for.
do i live just to please others?

then why do you bother so much about whether i bring you shame or honour?


anyways, to make me happier, let's just change the font colour.
i really feel unloved at some points, and it sucks.

orange! i cant even give a smiley nowww )=

anyways, ytd's acs(i) concert! i dint know gabriel was the concert master. and me and lulu were like " where's davin?" but we cldnt see him.
and blah msged me where she was, and i was trying sooo hard to find her, that i stood up during the concert. den lulu pointed her out, and she was like in the row diagonally next to ours. -.-
and i keep mixing the bands up, like NUS, and the SJI band.
cuz i went for rachel's concert after the acsi one.
and...
MET BLONDIE<3333

hahahaha
too bad they cldnt get an autograph for me )=
i dun think i'll ever see him again. haha

and guess what. stone fish is sooooo YUCKS!
we cld've played with the SJI band for the concert ytd night, but noooo
stonefish rejected chua's dad's offer.
so HWAchong played >.<

gahhhhh, i wanna play with a bandddddd
but i dun wanna join syooooo

okay, i shall stop whining.
rachel said she's thinking of planning a combined concert with ACJC STRINGS!! hahaha
yay!! yating and all the rest =DD

so fun! =D
but im just worried that i'll retain, i cant retain! our society doesnt accept retainees.
argh

anyways, i gtg bathe, and do my MEP composing stuffs.
>.<

sayonara my dear friends
(PS: im not suicidal)