havent posted in a while.. i think. haha

thanx dears, those who have been so supportive and helping me along the way through some tough times(=


i guess i just have to blog about it.
when i first heard the news, i was just unfeeling. i felt really bad and all that, but i'd already expected it. i've been expecting it for the past week. so i had alot of time to think about it.
but after awhile, i realised, i still cldnt believe that he was gone..
i know it's cliche, but really, it seemed like only yesterday when he made my favourite foods and desserts. (his chinese desserts were the only ones i ate)

i mean, just 6 months ago, he was still pretty healthy, up and about, making my fave foods and delivering them to me early on sunday mornings. i shldnt have taken it for granted.
i shld've cherished and appreciated all the things he did more.

so anyways, i dint really accepted it till i went for the wake on monday night.
i couldnt talk much, cuz i was trying to control my tears and stuff, but seriously.
sometimes the things people say at funerals(CORRECTION, WAKE) really do not help.
i mean, i know stuff like this is touchy and sensitive, but really, the more you say such things, the more they cry.
i guess the 1st wake pretty much brought a closure to my emotions and stuff.

i saw him the last time ytd, and im feeling alright already(=

im just thankful that he's with the Lord.




on a brighter note, i've been really touched by a few people's actions(=
mostly by my bestie, who has always been there for me.
thanx for everything, im really glad you were with me throughout everything(=
and i was really touched by what you did(=

i cant seem to find other words to describe it. haha

and thanx chelle, for being such a supportive best friend! =D
i know you've been rather worried lately, but dont worry! cuz i'll be there for you whenever, wherever(=

okays. im kinda.. occupied with trying to rush out certain assignments! haha so i've gotta stop blogging for now, kays?

love yous, my friends!

and maddie! i really miss you alot )=
email meee! (did i forget to reply you?)



take cares(=