today has been a really bad day. okay. not bad like, i was down on my luck or whatever.
but im just super tired and have been falling asleep EVERYWHERE. like in almost every lesson, on the bus, during chinese test and get this, DURING PIANO LESSON! yeah, today was essentially, NASTTYYY(as ras would say it) i couldnt concentrate on ANYTHING i was doing.
it was like i was floating in the clouds.

im venting here cuz firstly, my head is bursting at it's seams, secondly, i feel like im gonna throw up my heart cuz it's killing me and thirdly, i've been trying SO HARD to find someone to whine and complain to, but i really cant.
im feeling super stressed too, which totally doesnt help matters.

seriously, how did i fall in so deep? i dont ever rmb falling in so deep. how is it that i have done so in such a short time? it's time for me to rewind, to step a little further away from you.
i mean, i liked it. i liked that feeling.. but i cant, not now. maybe not ever, so it should be kept simple right? better than losing it altogether.
right. i shall and will do that. for your sake, i will.
i will stay away.
i used to think i knew what you wanted, but now i dont even know what to think anymore.
and since you want me to be at bay, i shall.
i wont guarantee that i'll be okay, but at least you will be. and that's all that matters(=



okay, emo part over. i wanted to blog about sth... OH! my piano lesson.
haha, today was pretty alright. in fact, i felt less stressed after it.
but, the ONE thing im super :O about, is.. that i have to play for some guy called ERIC, who is supposedly really great and all that :O like omg. i dont even know who he is!
i met him today and stuff, and he seemed pretty normal and nice. better than the gay dude last time, who tried stalking me after piano lesson. yeah, crazy guy.
ohwells. musicians are eccentric. hahaha
like rachel chua. retarded rachel crazy chua =D
alliteration!
haha i learnt somethings from lit after all.
okays, now i shall go study! but first, gotta do some stress relieving therapy (=

buhbye dearies(=