i think im really going mad with mugging. hahaa

anyways, these few days have been thinking about what my TUITION TEACHER said.
and i was pretty pissed. i noe i dun think i shld be pissed. or shld i?
im not exactly pissed. just frustrated. WHY CANT SHE UNDERSTAND?!
and gosh. isnt it common sense? everyone who knows me knows tt music is practically my life! how can she expect me to give up performing music??
sheesh. and almost everyone around me has music AS their life.
gahh
you know wad she said??

"well, what's more important? math or music?"
i was(in my head) : gosh. wad is wrong with her today? so frustrating.

PS: it wasnt the first time she asked me to weigh my priorities.
HELLO!?
which planet are you from?!
DUH.
1. MUSIC
2. dance
3.lit!
4. bio<3
etc.
do ya'll even SEE any bit of "math" in the list??
NO. so DUH.

ahhhhhhh!
im soooooo...
flabberghasted!
gahhhh! and i thought she was an understanding person.
guess i was wrong.
it's not that i dun care about my studies for math,
but you have to understand how important music is to me.

i was so frustrated just now that i went to bang some chopin. hahaa
and BACH.
then started improvising. yes, from BACH.hahhaha
it was quite fun. haha
started in C then went to my pretty chord progressions, then went one key by one key higher(chromatically).

hmm. i think im really gonna fall of my cliff soon.
i feel like the grinch, with all my burdens, expectations and problems bundled on my shoulders, on the edge of the cliff..
gonna fall, but being carried by my Father.
He's carrying me gently, trying to pull me away from the edge
of the cliff, but i keep pushing forward, not knowing a cliff's in front of me.
I even tried to push Him away, but He holds me cuz He loves me.
Im gonna leave everything in Him, all my burdens, expectations and problems.
they're too big and heavy for me to carry (=

kamsa-hamnida APPA! =D

thank you my Father in korean(=

anyways, just needed to blog to relieve some stress. my head feels like bursting.
after hearing haengbok, i feel better (=
hahaha.

EVERYONE! JIAYOU FOR MID YEARS!
nothing can be an obstacle to us right???
(=
and besides, after mid yrs, we have so much to look forward to =p

okays, im supposed to write my bday month, and strike out all that doesnt apply to me.
here goes:

JANUARY:
Stubborn(sometimes)
hard-hearted(err. dunno).
Ambitious(totally) and serious(depends on the situation)
Loves to teach and be taught.
Always looking at people's flaws and weaknesses.(not really, i dun like to judge)
Likes to criticize.(sometimes)
Hardworking and productive(hahahahha! totally NOT. but sometimes productive)
Smart(totally)
neat and organized.(not!)
Sensitive and has deep thoughts(wahahaha. i feel like jaejoong)
Knows how to make others happy.(i guess so)
Quiet unless excited or tensed(err. not many wld describe me as quiet. right?)
Rather reserved.(hahahha. what?!)
Highly attentive.(erm. for a few SECONDS)
Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds(YES!TOTALLY).
Romantic but has difficulties expressing love.(hahahha. YES)
Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous.(yeahhh)
Very stubborn and money cautious.(nopes)

since, i, the smart one, doesnt noe how to slash stuff off, i highlighted the ones that apply to me in PURPLE(=
anyways! LOVE LOVE EVERYONE<3