oh man. my mood's all ruined today. everything was going fine.
except i cldnt concentrate on bio, so i went for a run.
but running running.. i learnt sth today.

dont ever point ur middle finger, even if a reckless driver horns at you while u run on the pavement, the shock causing u to jump onto the road, and the crazy driver nearly bashes into you, then causing u to fall and get a bleeding wound, which made u limp all the way home. dont ever point ur middle finger, even if the crazy and idiotic driver, who nearly bashed into u after horning u for totally no particular reason and causiing u to get hurt and doesnt apologise, yet shouts back at you from his car. okay, wait. change his name. to coward! sheesh. u wanna swear at me, then get outta the car. sheesh. just cuz ur driving some freaking bm doesnt give u the right to horn at ppl on pavements!

gosh. arent PAVEMENTS MEANT FOR PEDESTRIANS?! WAD IS WRONG WITH THE PEOPLE IN OUR SOCIETY?!
are they eccentric or what?!
they're exactly how fahrenheit 451 describes them.

grrr. so pissed.

anyways, ALOUD. okays, so everyone knew i got 3rd.

im satisfied. or at least i should be.
i've been trying so hard to feel just more thankful.
but ever since aunty belinda(the producer, a judge) asked me "lydia, are u really satisfied with ur results?" i keep thinking abt it.
i was grateful and happy at first.
till she raised tt question.

gah. anyways.

i cant stand being looked down upon. worse still, i dislike other's sympathy towards me.
can ya'll just zip up ur mouths and stop saying things tt hurt?
it doesnt help. it really doesnt.
unless u want me to turn freaking ano, and be a skeleton?
or do u want to force me to go crazy?

why should i meet up to ur expectations?
wait a second. who's expectations are they anyway?
yours or mine?
and who's more important?
who cares if i suck? who cares if im ugly? who cares if im fat?

i dont care, so why shld u?

just shut up and stop putting stuff in my mind.



okays. enough of venting.
everything just came out. phheew.
feels much better.
dont take it to heart dears.
just me venting.
haha, sorry for wasting ur time.