omg, lydia! how can you get jealous over such stupid things?!



yeah. im such an idiot.
gosh. what is wrong with me?


anyways. i still cant rmb the 2nd day yet heehee =D

so i shall just post about today?

and.. of course my christmas wishlist, completed version, plus alot of other lists!

i shall start with today's post first.

met up with charis and stuff, and gosh. there are SUCH weird ppl in sentosa.
oh, esp in coffee bean too.
remind me never to go coffee bean ever again.
they have such weird customers.
and.. the malay guy we met a long time ago in sentosa, we saw him again!
(he's a staff btw)

so cool!
but he looks older now. hm.

ohoh, and when we were at vivo, the coffeebean was so weird.
a weird china dude and a weird lady who bought NOT ONE BUT 3 DRINKS!
and she kept spitting stuff out fm one of her drinks, and everyone was staring at her.
it was so gross!
then charis said the most spasticated thing EVER.

"maybe we're on gotcha! and they're filming us right now, when we keep staring at us!"

hahahhahaha. it's okay dear, everyone has retarded moments! =D


anyways, there are alot of things on my mind now. maybe i'll feel better after doing the lists(=
okay, let's start with the BIGGIE, before i forget.

THE SERIOUSLY, MOST ULTIMATE, COOLEST, MOST WONDERFUL, EXTREMELY, GORGEOUS, FAB, THE ONE AND ONLY..


LYDIA'S CHRISTMAS WISHLIST!(completed version):
(There will be 15, and only charis knows why!)
1. little prince book!!
2. pink sunglasses( i wanna get them myself)
3. the pink sweater thingy that doesnt have sleeves from JOOP
4. the brown bikini! (from some shop in vivo hahaha)
5. green flowy spaghetti fm FOREVER 21 =D
6. PUMPS!!(preferably blue (= )
7. glacier eyebags roll (hahah dont laugh, i have serious eyebags)
8. hugs =DD (for those who cannot get anything fm my list hahaha)
9. cards and letters fm everyone<3
10. to perform! =D
11. fedora!(it's a hat) ( damn, i shld've gotten one for myself when i bought one for my bro in europe)
12. partyyyyy!
13. not get sick on boxing day
14. go for lipo to get rid of my super disgusting fats! (hahahhaa kiddingggg!!!)
15. YOUUU! =D

haha i dint really know what to put for the last few.. so. haha just crapped.


anyways, more lists!
next on the list(again), MY TO DO LIST:
1. find my ipod shuffle
2. find my makeup(they're all missing!)
3. lost weight by christmas!
4. practice piano and violin :/
5. dilligently do my homework and revision!
6. EXERCISE! (at least 3 times a week, i've already done twice this week, maybe i shld do everyday!)
7. spring clean my super messy and unorganized closet.

haha done!

7 things i like to do when im bored:
1. stone
2. sing random songs(on shuffle!)
3. dance around crazily
4. swim! hahahaha
5. look at old photos!(=
6. msg my bestie =D (btw, my best friends all have diff nicks.)
7. mop the floor.

okays, so i've really changed since 2 years ago. hahaha

7 things i love most in my life:
1. music
2. family
3. friends
4. my pillow! =D
5. snowy! (this tattered and almost torn stuffed dog i have)
6. my black limited edition FOX jacket! =D
7. my old ballet shoes. (hm. wonder where they went)


7 things i cannot stand in people:
1. RUDE/CRUDE manners( aka, ppl talking rudely to me etc)
2. ppl who have no consideration for others
3. selfish ppl
4. backstabbing
5. ppl who have no respect for others
6. hypocrites
7. cant think of anymore..


7 secrets of mine(please dont laugh,they're not gonna be secrets anymore after this):
1. my fave stuffed dog was given to me from my fave maid(=
2. i used to be super scared of vampires hahaha
3. i used to think that medusa will come and kill me when im bathing -.-
4. my fave pet dog was mitzu, a black labrador who always chewed on our water hose.
5. i used to fight with my bro everyday, and never thought we would ever come to this(=
6. yellow was my first fave colour
7. i used to have imaginary friends whose names i cannot rmb anymore (but according to my sibllings, their names were lily, vel-sth and ahminah) and.. their skins and faces kept changing, one day they'd be yellow, another pink etc. and i wld always insist that they sat at the last seat of the dining table, so other guests who came to my house could never sit there.

haha, my childhood was.. amusing.


anyways, i was just thinking.
like. charis has always been my best friend. since like.. forever.
and i have a feeling we always will be. hahaha so funny and random.

but i rmb in sec one, i told myself that i dint wanna lose ANY of my friends then.
but sadly, i already have.
so im pretty upset about it.
i tried so hard to.. contact them again. but some of them just.. seem as if they dont wanna talk to me at all.
why??

why cant we be friends again?
is it true?
the new cant come if the old cant go?
i thought u nv believed that?
ironically, YOU were the one who befriended me.
why leave me then?

cant friends be together forever?
my sister once told me that friends are never forever, they come and go throught your whole life.
but i dont wanna believe that.
cant i just hold onto this belief?


)=
ohwells. i'll try again.
i'll keep trying until you're willing to tell me why you left.


and that aint the only thing in my mind.
i feel pretty bad to some of my friends who..
wanted to be more than just friends to me?
cuz i kinda, unconsciously distanced myself fm them.
and now i kinda regret it.
i dont wanna lose a good friend. but i cant help it.

ohwells. guess.. my fairytale-like belief is gonna be destroyed soon.
why do all my fairytale beliefs get destroyed?

well, at least i dint keep those bottled up.
there are other stuff too, but im gonna keep those in (=


OHOH. I SAW LAOMAY AT COFFEE BEAN TODAY WITH HER DAD AND THE STUPID GIRL DINT SEE ME! hmph.