hey dears. yeah. im finally blogging.
unfortunately my emotions are in a whirlwind.
haha

im happy one moment, upset another, and angry in another.
gosh. i hope im not going nuts.
maybe it's all the pressure.

i have had about ENOUGH pressure,thank you.
i really dont need some MORE pressure coming from friends.

im pissed off, hurt and so freaking upset with some people.
wait, i shldnt be hurt.
cuz that would mean i was actually close to you?
ew. like gross me out and spit me out, i'd rather die than to be a close friend of yours.


anyways, i may seem mean now in this post. but no way am i gonna let myself be bullied ever again.
so dont even try ur luck.

but im really pretty stressed enough.
gosh.
aloud! never ends.
recording after recording.
performances after performances.

recently, some ppl have been bugging me to join campus superstar.
but for one, im having my Os next yr.
im so not taking the risk of being in a competition.
and another.
RACHEL LIM IS JOINING. hahaha. no wayyy am i joining.
plus, not many friends would support me.
i suffer from the same fate as rachel.
this is the destiny of mgs girls
haha

anyways, recording was fun today.
much easier than the previous one. maybe im getting used to it.
=D

and natty's soo nutty. but she amuses me so.
haha
and bern's soo sweet, i cant help but love her. (PS, her voice is super sweet as well)
plus! rachel lim was there. haha
so it was pretty fun.

although my solo was kiinda.. erm. taken away? but i guess it's cuz my throat wasnt feeling so well today.
but it's alright. i think natty deserved the part anyway. =D

and i hope rachel finds her pink camera asap =p
hahaha

plus. now, i have a good friend, whom im not really sure is what i think is like.
i dun even know what you're really like anymore.
everyone else has a different opinion of you, compared to mine.
our friendship makes me heavy hearted sometimes.
maybe we should break it off.

sometimes i just really wanna run away from everything.
my life is so tiring sometimes.
but because of some ppl and God, i stay alive.


i cant focus. with you, i cant focus.
i need to get away, away from you.
get my focus back in the right places,
so i'll never have to mess up.

run away, run away from it all
does it solve the problem?
or can we just try to get over this
i often wonder, in my dreams,
if i run away,
when can i ever find you again?


i cant focus, with you i cant focus.
i need to get away, away from you.
get my focus in the right places,
so i'll get everything fixed up.

it hurts me so, hurting me bad
but do you feel the hurt?
in that fragile glass heart of yours?
too protected, too ignorant
to understand,
to think of me.

i cant focus, without you, i cant focus.
i want to get away, away from you
to get my focus in the right places,
so i'll just have to be away,
away from you.


take cares