(= i felt loved today(=

anyways, i cant be bothered about what they say about me anymore, seriously.
last time, it was because of their nonsensical gossip that i lost so many good friends..
now, do i still have to listen to them about what i think of myself? i think not.

and.. thanx chelle and gab, for your encouragements(= ahha

i spent quite alot of time with my cousins today.. although i dint really feel up to it at first, and i was kinda dreading having to like socialise with people. (yeah i know, something's really wrong with me) maybe it's cuz of the studying and the stress that has really gone to my head.
or maybe i was just feeling upset cuz of certain issues and that stupid dream i had :/
but i guess the time spent with them was good for me(=
although i dint get to study much, hmm? (xiaoen,i know you're reading this!)
but yeah, i missed them :/
haha had a good talk with them too, complaining, and laughing like mad etc. it's fun, and i missed girly talks :/ haha sounds cliched huh?
charis, i so need a sleepover at your place!

and today, is mother's day!(=
haha my godma is seriously super funny.
cuz we're not really close and all that, it's kinda awkward sometimes between my godparents and i, even. but i used to stay at their place when i was younger and even though i did that, i still wasnt close to them or my godbrothers.
haha i rmb once, when i was 9, i woke up really early in the morning.
and my godpa's the only one that wakes up relatively early in that household.
so i went to bug him and stuff, and he gave me a task to do.
wake my godbrothers up.
i was like huh? how am i gonna do that, when i cant even differentiate which one's which?
but i went upstairs anyway, and knocked on the door.
no one opened it, so i just went in.(btw, my godbrothers were like 17/18 then i think)
then at first i couldnt see them, i only saw 2 humps -.-
and when i realised that they were my godbrothers, i was like omg,they're really tall :0
and you know how i woke them up?(since they got the pig genes fm my godma)
i saw one of them move, and stupidly screamed really loudly and ran out.
that woke them up(=
hahaha

okays, so enough about them. and yeah, my godma and i arent really close.
so today, i was waiting for the choir to go up and stuff, and she sat next to me
so i said "happy mother's day, godma!"
and she went "where's my present?" (she's very cheeky, my godma)
me: "err.. im having exams now, so no time to get you one.."
then at this point she smiled and pointed to her cheek and said "okay la, then if you just gimme a kiss, i'll let you off."

-i dint know she was joking okay! i took her seriously-
i hesitated for awhile, then i kissed her! :0 i can't believe i did that. hahahaha
and she got a shock, for awhile. hahaha
and then she burst out into laughter and cldnt stop -.-
ohwells, at least someone's happy. haha

haha, but yeah, i really felt love today(=
i guess im someone that needs to experience it, and not just hear it all the time..



that stupid dream still echoes in my mind :/