today was a good day! managed to study productively with charis! hahahha
and we also got to window shop a little(=
but gimme a break, i wont be going out for the next 3 weeks )= im so sad.
)=


sigh.

but i guess there's a good thing i learnt from all this studying..
im actually starting to enjoy studying!(=
the being able to keep still and quiet to do something worthwhile or at least productive.

when i told my mom that, she stared and me and asked "are you alright? i think talking to yourself isnt the 1st sign of madness, this is."
haha i found that quite amusing.
and.. i love my grandma(=
really really really alot(=

she blow-dried, or issit blew-dry? my hair today!(= hahaha
now it's so smooth, silky and split end less! (okay, but my hair nv did have split ends, but not that point).

and she helped me wash my cup today(=
i love my grandma(=

i've decided to post everything she does for me everyday. (or write it down in my diary)
so i'll never take her for granted.(=

hmm but some stuff has been getting me down lately, and it's because of myself.
i dont know whether or not to continue the distance, but im afraid we might get too far apart.. and i prly wont be able to take it.
but it's a really urrggghh feeling when i cant tell you things.
and i want us to be interdependable. not just one-sided.
and after just 2 weeks, it feels like you've changed.
i dont know, maybe im thinking too much.



ohwells. keep my eyes peeled. im looking at the prize.
A1s, here i come!