haha. sometimes i really wonder. if destiny's real, and God really created a soulmate for me..
and if i dun find him. and marry the wrong guy, wont it all be so wasted?

and my soulmate could be anywhere! in india, perhaps? or maybe somewhere faraway like europe?
or maybe someone nearer to me?among my friends?
i'll never know.
so how wld i be sure tt it's the right guy?

so conclusion:

to avoid al this confusion, lydia, dont ever get married.

another reason for me to stay single(=

anyways, went out with charis on tues.
which was an utter disaster.
i mean, not the going out part
the going home part.
i got lost!
you know how freaking scared i was?!

i wanted to call some ppl, but i dint wanna bother them.
no money in my ezlink, only 12 bucks in my wallet.
i had to enter some unknown abandoned building, to cross the road to a taxi stand..
so scaryyy

-shudder-
brrr. dun wanna think about it.
still scares me.

anyways, to make matters worse.
a very unkind and scary taxi driver scolded me.
cuz he was half deaf or sth,
i was yelling at the top of my voice to tell him where to go
yet, when he cldnt hear me, he scolded me for "not giving clear instructions"
u know how upset i was?
as if i wasnt shaken enough,
he kept blaming me. muttering to himself
"young ppl nowadays. dunno how to behave. hurrumph"

gosh. if i werent so scared and shivering, i wld've totally blasted tt stupid guy's head with my wallet and get outta the cab.

okays. anyways. exaggerating. hahaha
but now tt i think of it, im so pissed.

but the going out with charis was fun(=
we chatted alot. havent goneout in ages
and i got to test the vera wang princess perfume!
haha, okay, it wasnt my first time spraying it somewhere, or smelliing it.
but cant afford to buy it :/
and it's my fave smell! >.<
nvm. haha. i shall treat it to myself as a self-christmas-present.
hahaha
tts if i even rmb to buy it. hahaha

every year i create 2 wishlists.
one for my bday
one for christmas.
cant believe how time flies.
it's gonna be christmas soon! =DD my fave time of the yr.
hopefully, i dun retain. then i can enjoy my christmas.
if i retain, i really dunno how im gonna..
hhhaha. my pet phrase used to be:
if i retain, i'll jump off the buildiing

but now, im afraid tt it just might come true.
so im not gonna say tt anymore.
but.. what if i really DO retain?!
bleah. hou guo bu kan she xiang
hahah my chinese improved, rite tham?

anyways, im gonna continue doing some other stuffs.
so take cares dears!(=