i dont like the colour of my font.
it's black and boring.

anyways.
i've come to a conclusion.
feelings are such a hassle arent they?
best if one dint have feelings at all.

but then we would be so cold, without any feelings.

some ppl call me brainless, pea-brained,bird-brained, air head, light headed, bimbo. etc
i've mentioned this many times before,
but i dont think they try to understand why i wld prefer not to think so much.

one of my best friends always tell me"dont think so much", it may just be a sentence tt many would not think much of, but i do.
it means alot, and has helped me many times before.
and thats why i wanna thank that bestie(=

anyways, back to the topic of ppl calling me bimbo etc, i've mentioned it MANY MANY MANY times before on quite a few of my posts, some angry, some hurt, some.. i dunno-what-to-say-anymore.
but this post is gonna be different.
i mean, im used to them calling me tt anyway.
so it's not like im angry about it, even if im, i dont think it wld stop them -.-
but it's just.
why do ppl call others names that they dont wanna be called?
i mean, they know it MIGHT hurt the other person, but yet, they still do.
charis says its because the person feels close enough with the other person, so he/she would have the audacity to do so?
well, im not sure if audacity's the right word for what she meant.
but ya'll get the point.

but.. i still think it's pretty mean.
dont get me wrong, i do suan/tease others sometimes, but i suck at it hahaha
charis can be my witness for that.

i've been rather confused lately.
hm. or wait.
i've always been cconfused?
nahh.
i just hope i wont go on living in such a confused state, and there actually is a way to solve my confusion.
well, not exactly solve, but.. stop?
nah, not stop. but.. distract my confusion.

but there are circumstances, where i cant go about with that method to 'distract my confusion'.

haha, okays anyway.

i shall stop posting such weird stuff.
let's talk about..
what happened from tuesday till now. =D
tuesday..
hm.
basically i stoned ard at home..
did my crazy 55 questions of amath.
practiced my weird sounding violin.
practiced some chopin and mozart on the piano.
btw, I LOVE THE MOZART PIECE IM PLAYING NOW(=

even though my tuesday wasnt that interesting,
but someone made my day(=
so i was really happy(=

wednesday!
dint go for strings, but had to drop by mrs chua' s place to hand up hw -.-
met up with my bro for lunch, and for christmas shopping.
our gifts are all handmade(=
but i think i messed mine up quite abit, sorry amigos! >.<

started missing charis :/


thursday!
havent done much today. stoned around alot! it felt good to relax and to have nothing to do at all today(=
but actually i had to do some work.
gah. but i decided to push it to tmr
hahah


i felt lonely today. dont know why.
haha sounds like im emo-ing, but im not, so dont worry.
i think it's cuz charis and dae are overseas.
eunice is hardly contactable, thams hasnt been online in ages, chua and ze are always so busy,
only lulu's available. haha.
wensley has totally disappeared.
my senior's missing half the time too.
i dont wanna disturb him either..
nowadays i hardly talk to mr himbo aka clement either.
all my cliques are disappearing!
and.. i forgot to get rachel's or bern's or clarice's or agatha's msn so cant chat with them either :/
gahhhh.
im bored.
now even yu xuan wont talk to me on msn either!
haha, maybe cuz i kicked his ass on bejewelled =D

anyways, im bored.
okay, this was a boring post. hahaha
buhbye amigos!