it's not just tiring. it's draining.
sometimes i wish i could run away from all this. but then again, it's life. how can you run away from life? it ain't like those dramas, where everything comes to an end with a happy bang! but what if my ending is something tragic? something no one would ever think of?

just look at Job. he's a great example, he lost everything he once had. but he still believed in God.
i wanna be like him, to have his determination and strong faith in God.
but sometimes it gets a little hard, doesn't it?
especially when you lose a few loved ones here and there, and it feels like not even your friends are supporting you.



my posts are hardly ever pink anymore :/
ohwells! went out with charis today, and during lunch, we saw this super annoying couple in white dog cafe of vivo! they were so mean! seriously! we wanted to be nice today and all that, but i guess we just couldnt resist in the end. haha
cuz they kept whispering stuff to each other about us, pointing at us and stuff.. so we got kinda pissed off. and we wanted to smile REALLY nicely at them after we left, just to spite them. but we decided to be nice people, and just leave the place.
BUT. once we walked out, the guy stared at us AGAIN. so i walked a little closer to the window he sat next to, and glared at him(= and so did charis. hahaha

so much for niceness. haha
we watched angels and demons today, and the show got me thinking a lot.
here i am,in this small and sunny town Singapore, oblivious of the terrible and corrupt happenings in the world, or rather, ignorant of them. how dumb can i get?
but then again, i dont really wanna acknowledge the fact that these things do happen. it's really scary. :/

to those who call me an airhead for no apparent reason, seriously, maybe you should consider a little more on why i would do so in the first place.
it's not something i want, who on earth wants to be an airhead?
but it's an ignorance that no one, not even myself can control.
as they say:
ignorance is a bliss.